.`..ESTER MARIAN:.`.. "iM bRutaLLy hOneSt, devaStAtinGLy fRaNk, aNd cOmpLeteLy up fRont witH eveRybOdY iNcLudinG myseLf.DeviL-may-caRe attitUde. I reaLLy dOnt dO aNythinG,iM taMaD! Just eaT riGht, livE riGht, & sMiLe all the tiMe, thAts mAh liFestyLe. But wheN it cOmes tO mAh fRieNds, itS a difFeRent stOry cOz iL dO eveRythinG aNd dO the iMpOsiBLe juSt 4 theM!"
MY HEART IS LOCKED FOR IVAN MARC EDQUILANE
Who I Want to Meet:
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Am I trying to hard
To Keep this love alive
You don't seem to care
About this love that we had
I called you last night
But you were not there
I didn't here from you at all today
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore
Heart-
It's hard for me to say goodbye
The tears are falling down my eyes
I'm sorry,
I'm Sorry, but we tried...
17:28-
I thought we shared a life that was full of love
But now I realize we shared an empty hope
I will cry my last cry
Before I say bye bye
I will sing my last love song for you tonight
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY iDiOSYNCRASiES
Your perfection scares me. I should be happy, yes. But I know that there lies an evil side in each of us, but you seem perfect and that scares me. I do not know when you will surprise me with that other side of you and I am not prepared for that. I think this is the pinnacle of our love story, the excitement will always be there. The surprises always present. I do not know when will the pessimism in me die. I know that there is more beauty in ?us? than what I see. We are wonderful, and me? stupid, foolish child, I fail to see that. Hurting and crying have been part of a routine in our affair, I am disgusted with myself knowing that I am the one responsible for that but still I could not do anything about it. Reason and feelings collide. Helpless is how I see myself. So I cling to you, my strength. I am just hoping that you will not get tired of me. Of my endless drama, nonstop whining, never-ending tears. I am just hoping that you will still see the beauty amidst the ogre in me. I do not want to lose you and the only thing that I could do to keep YOU is not to be me. U CAN HATE ALL U WANT BUT U CAN NEVER BREAK ME INTO SHATTERED PIECES!!
f.c. me mxado. .
til hir nlng. .
ingatz!.
To Keep this love alive
You don't seem to care
About this love that we had
I called you last night
But you were not there
I didn't here from you at all today
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore
Heart-
It's hard for me to say goodbye
The tears are falling down my eyes
I'm sorry,
I'm Sorry, but we tried...
17:28-
I thought we shared a life that was full of love
But now I realize we shared an empty hope
I will cry my last cry
Before I say bye bye
I will sing my last love song for you tonight
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY HEART IS LO
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY HEART IS LO
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY HEART IS LOCKED FOR YOU
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY HEART IS LOCKED FOR YOU
WHAT'S WRONG W/ ME???
MY HEART WONT SEEM TO LEARN.
IT WAS SO LONG HAVE I BEEN
IN DARKNESS,
WITH NO DAYS..
JUST PAINFUL NIGHTS..
I DID MY BEST TO FORGET YOU
BUT WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF U
WONDERING IF UR FINE..
AND WHAT UR DOING W/ UR LYF..
I GAVE UP EVERYTHING..
IT WAS CHEAP AND MEANINGLESS..
BUT IM ALWAYS AT THE LOSING SIDE.
NOT HEARING FROM YOU..
AND BEING FAR FROM YOU,
IT TEARS ME APART!
CANT YOU SEE??
IM DYING FROM THE INSIDE..
AND I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD..
THAN BEING TRAPPED HERE
FROM THE SPOT WHERE YOU ABANDONED ME.
HOW COULD U JUST LEFT ME..
WITHOUT EVEN A SINGLE CARE
IT'S COLD AND IM ALONE.
BUT HERE I AM,
STANDING STILL.
W8TING FOR A BETTER DAY.
I HATE MYSELF,
FOR STILL LOVING
THE GUY WHO
GAVE UP EASILY ON ME..
YOU NEVER LOVED ME,
STAY TRUE TO URSELF!
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,
I'LL WEAR MY BROKEN SMILE.
CARRY MY SHATTERED DREAMS..
MY HEART IS LOCKED FOR YOU